Today is all saints day! And I lost a friend again!

He was out too late, and in a place he shouldn't have been and most probably, for those of us who knew him, he was running his mouth.

He was shot in the head at close range. Not that he was lost because he has been lost for awhile, but the angels looked away and then turned back and found him in need of transportation to heaven!

It was his time; he put himself in his own time and lost his own life with not enough time to have lived a life too shortly!

He was distracted by his own needs, he fed his own demons and they in turn took what all they needed from him.

Tomorrow his family will place his organs on line to be used by men, women and children who are indeed in need of the healthy organs of an active younger man!

I am sad for myself for not taking more time to learn from him!

I am angry with the fates for stealing him from me

for I did love him as a father loves his wayward son!

He lied, and he thought it was well delivered, he took for himself and expected those around him not to notice, and he loved with the nature and the energy of any young man who is as healthy, vigorous and young as the youth he represented to the rest of us!

Ben I love you and I will remember and miss you even more in the future!

November 1, 2008 4:30 AM Shands hospital, Jacksonville Florida.

Love the person Hate the behavior!

Jeffrey S. Palmer

8/12/72

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